Should I wait for him to call after a fight?

coco
25.06.2012
coco

Well it was one of those days… I was really down, depressed and suffering from low self esteem and mood swings… And right at that moment my boyfriend called… I could not stop but groan that everyone took me for granted, made me feel that i am a time pass and that people didnt care about me. He too made me feel like that at times like i am a no one to him, his 'miss you' messages are endless but i used to feel like he was just saying that to make me feel better. I indirectly told him that he is just like any other guy and said that am gonna hang up but he kindled me to say more and i continued… And he said it would make me feel good if i said everything out… He asked if i needed a hug i said a big NO and he said are you sure, i said yes… I dont need any hugs, i dont need any friends, i dont need any love, i dont deserve u etc etc… I was vunerable… Den he asked if i was sure of my words. I said i think so… And then i said i need to go the highest mountain and stay der so no one reaches me… And he said he would come with me… I said you then you wont come down alive… I will push you from there and I think that got him really upset… And he ended up saying ''so all that you want is for me to go away… Your wish is granted… This will be my last talk with you, I wont answer your messages until you call me'' to that i replied ''iam never going to message you or call you… And also you wont be forced to miss anyone anymore, u deserve a lot better'' and he got pissed off at that and said ''shut up no one forces me to do anything, have a bright future'' n hung up:( mmmm… This happened on saturday and and today is monday… I dont know if I should call him or wait for him to call? I dont think I was completely wrong. But then I am not sure. I wish he would call me… Its not that I have an ego problem… But right now i feel it is best to build walls just to see who would take the pain to climb over… I dont want to go begging behind people… But since den I have been looking at my phone countless times expecting him to call… And also I had a strange dream last night that I got a call and a sweet message from him n was smiling and then I woke up and looked into my pone and there was nothing… :( :(… I really wish the dream would come true…

I have never discussed my problems with anyone… This is my first time here and I really need your help guys… Do you think I should wait? If so how long do I have to wait? Or should I just let go and move on?

Drew
02.07.2012
Drew

You need to be on meds. Get a good Psychiatrists and get some help.